Took dogs for walk with baby. The shrieks of the baby with the fussiness of the dogs made this the worst evening I have had in a long time. I almost broke down. Came back home to find that people were now back from their tasks and I left the baby with his mom and took the dogs, one dog was being opinionated so left her back home and took the other one alone. Wasn't a bad walk at all, but peanut the beagle definitely sensed how tense I was & the way she was reacting to me. made me realise just how irritated I was.
So I went out and got drunk, yes a full 1.5 pints of beer and that's apparently enough to send me over the edge! Writing this post under the influence. I'm thinking, this is tough. Of course you're changing the way you live your life, no more going out when you want or doing whatever you did, but... it still feels right. I don't know what the great thing is, but it's there. Maybe it's love.